we were once betrayers

re: GEOG 108

Fri, 19 Jan 2007 04:11:38 GMT

If anyone is taking geology 108, volcanoes and earthquakes, this winter session, let me know.

I have a question for you.

Sun, 01 Jan 2006 01:07:44 GMT

[1] What did you do in 2005 that you'd never done before? Lost 40 lbs.

[2] Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year? I didn't have any resolutions, and this is the year I feel like I accomplished the most: quit smoking, started running and lost some weight.

[3] Did anyone close to you give birth? No. When I'm within a mile of someone, she becomes infertile.

[4] Did anyone close to you die? No.

[5] What countries did you visit? This glorious one.

[6] What would you like to have in 2006 that you lacked in 2005? My degree. An admission letter to law school.

[7] What date(s) from 2005 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? Jan. 4, 2005. From retribution to complete and utter disgust for someone who I trusted.

[8] What was your biggest achievement of the year? Asserting myself and re-establishing a connection with my physical self through running.

[9] What was your biggest failure? Doubting myself at several pivotal moments throughout the year.

[10] Did you suffer any illness or injury? If you count mental, yes.

[11] What was the best thing you bought? My iPod.

[12] Whose behavior merited celebration? Steve Graham's. Tasha must be doing something right. Katie, for handling the month of May with complete grace. Michael, for finally apologizing. Even if he was loaded.

[13] Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? I'm outing them for the sake that they should be responsible for their demise. Judah and Andy, although for totally different reasons.

[14] Where did most of your money go? Let's be honest. Beer, gas and parking tickets.

[15] What did you get really, really, really excited about? I honestly can say nothing.

[16] What song will always remind you of 2005? 'Swimmers' Broken Social Scene. 'Come on Feel the Illnoise' Sufjan.

[17] Compared to this time last year, are you...

i. Happier or sadder? It's all relative. I'd say happier.

ii. Thinner or fatter? Thinner, finally.

iii. Richer or poorer? Richer, but not for long.

[18] What do you wish you'd done more of? Take risks. Make out.Spend time with my friends.

[19] What do you wish you'd done less of? Work.

[20] How will you be spending Christmas? I spent it with my crazy family.

[22] Did you fall in love in 2005? Yeah, with myself.

[23] How many one-night stands? For the first year in like 5, I can say none.

[24] What was your favorite TV program? West Wing. As if this isn't obvious.

[25] Do you hate anyone now who you didn't hate this time last year? HAHA EVERYONE.

[26] What was the best book you read? "War is a force that gives us meaning" by Chris Hedges.

[27] What was your greatest musical discovery? Those kookie Canadians! BSS, Arcade Fire, Feist. Sufjan and Spoon.

[28] What did you want and get? A healthier body but not without work. An A in law.

[29] What did you want and not get? More respect from the male gender. Ahem.

[30] What was your favorite film of this year? Secretly? Sin City. Shamefully? Walk the Line. Unabashedly? Capote and 40-year-old Virgin.

[31] What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? 21. Went to Dead Prez with Mattie J, Jaxs, Rich and Wally. It was a good time but I didn't drink my face off.

[32] What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? I have everything I can ask for and more.

[33] How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2005? Classic with a thrifty edge a.k.a. I looked like a bum because none of my clothes fit.

[34] What kept you sane? Running. Mike Hartnett.

[35] Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? Considering there weren't many to emulate this year, I think Maureen Dowd influenced me the most.

[36] What political issue stirred you the most? Any lapse in presidential competency was enough to send me over the edge.

[37] Who did you miss? No one worth listing.

[38] Who was the best new person you met? MJHart.

[39] Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2005: It's me and only me.
[40] Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:

"Even in my best condition, counting all the superstition
I am riding all alone
I am running all alone"
Sufjan.

R.I.P. John Spencer

Sat, 17 Dec 2005 01:36:27 GMT

A drought of Christmas cheer.
My menopausal mother is frolicking around planning parties and decorating our foyer with eight color schemes as if materialism is proportionally linked to her Christmas spirit. Bah fucking humbug. She's a loon, who last week told me "But money will make you happy."
Uh huh.
Speaking of money, I lost my job.
As of Jan. 9.
So no boyfriend, most of my friends ignore me or are 300 miles away, but I'll always have West Wing, right?
wrong.

LOS ANGELES (AP) — John Spencer, who played a tough and dedicated politico on “The West Wing” who survived a serious illness to run for vice president, died of a heart attack Friday. He was 58.
Spencer died at a Los Angeles hospital, said his publicist, Ron Hofmann. He would have been 59 next week.
“John was a consummate professional actor and everyone adored him,” said actress Allison Janney, C.J. Cregg on the NBC series. “We will miss him deeply.”
Spencer played Leo McGarry, the savvy and powerful chief of staff to President Josiah “Jed” Bartlet (Martin Sheen). In a sad parallel to life, Spencer’s character suffered a heart attack that forced him to give up his White House job.
The character recovered and was picked as a running mate for Democratic presidential contender Matt Santos, played by Jimmy Smits; the campaign against Republican Arnold Vinick (Alan Alda) has been a central theme for the drama this season.
“We’re shocked and deeply saddened by the sudden death of our friend and colleague,” Aaron Sorkin, who created the series, and Tommy Schlamme, one of the original executive producers, said in a joint statement.
“John was an uncommonly good man, an exceptional role model and a brilliant actor. We feel privileged to have known him and worked with him. He’ll be missed and remembered every day by his many, many friends,” they said.
Series executive producer John Wells remembered Spencer not only for his acting but as “a generous and gracious friend.”
NBC and producer Warner Bros. Television issued a statement calling Spencer a “remarkable man with enormous talent.” They did not address how his death would affect the Emmy Award-winning series, in production on its seventh season.
Spencer, who also starred on “L.A. Law” as attorney Tommy Mullaney, received an Emmy Award for his performance on “The West Wing” in 2002 and was nominated four other times for the series.
The actor, whose world-weary countenance was perfect for the role of McGarry, mirrored his character in several ways: Both were recovering alcoholics and both, Spencer once said, were driven.
“Like Leo, I’ve always been a workaholic, too,” he told The Associated Press in a 2000 interview. “Through good times and bad, acting has been my escape, my joy, my nourishment. The drug for me, even better than alcohol, was acting.”
Spencer grew up in Paterson, N.J., the son of blue-collar parents. With his enrollment at the Professional Children’s School in Manhattan at age 16, he was sharing classes with the likes of Liza Minnelli and budding violinist Pinchas Zukerman.
As a teenager, he landed a recurring role on “The Patty Duke Show” as the boyfriend of English twin Cathy. Stage and film work followed. Then his big break: playing Harrison Ford’s detective sidekick in the 1990 courtroom thriller “Presumed Innocent.” That role led to his hiring for the final four years of “L.A. Law.”
Spencer played a streetwise lawyer on the David E. Kelley drama that was in sharp contrast to the show’s otherwise glamorous cast and setting.
After attending the Manhattan performing arts school, Spencer studied at Fairleigh Dickenson University. He then began working on stage in New York and in regional theaters, in plays including David Mamet’s “Lakeboat” and Tennessee Williams’ “The Glass Menagerie.”
Spencer won an Obie Award for the 1981 off-Broadway production of “Still Life,” about a Vietnam veteran, and received a Drama Desk nomination for “The Day Room.”
His made his feature film debut with a small role in “War Games,” which was followed by roles in “Sea of Love” and “Black Rain.” Spencer said his work in “Presumed Innocent” represented a “watershed role.”
In recent years, he worked both in studio and independent films, including “The Rock,” “The Negotiator,” “Albino Alligator,” “Lesser Prophets” and “Cold Heart.”

Somehow a life without Leo is not worth living.

the agony and the anarchy

Sat, 10 Dec 2005 15:28:09 GMT

Worse GRB ever.
Coffee tables broken.
Hip injury.
Too much to drink.
Slapped every male in the room.
That all before the cake fight broke out and I got frosting on my $150 blazer.
But I feel like there was order in last night's chaos, even if it was just the rare peaceful moment on the balcony with Carson, realizing how little time I have left with these people I love.
That is, if CC doesn't fire me today.

its not like anyone else but me reads this anyway. . .

Tue, 06 Dec 2005 05:35:28 GMT

I'm indulging my inner 18 year old.

1) Was 2005 a good year for you?
Overall, yes and no. I made progress in some realms of my life, most notably my health by quitting smoking and starting to run, and made strides professionally with maintaining my progress in school and getting my internship. Socially, I digressed, by cutting ties from most of my friends and living alone.

2) What was your favorite moment of the year?
Definately when Mike delivered the long-awaited apology. The few days I spent with Donna. Philly with Misty in mid-July. The Watergate weekend with Judah.

3) What was your least favorite moment of the year?
Hangover on New Years Day, realizing Andy stole $400 from my roommate and having to confront him.

4) Where were you when 2005 began?
Manayunk, at Brook's and Ju-Ju's, out of breath b/c we had just ran in and taking shots of captains, which I would regret hours later.

5) Who were you with?
Brook, Ju-Ju, Ashley, Judah, Misty, Rich, Jackie, and many more.

6) Where will you be when 2005 ends?
probably with ordinary people doing ordinary things.

7) Who will you be with when 2005 ends?
Misty probably. Hopefully Donna.

8) Did you keep your new years resolution of 2005?
I don't recall what it was. I don't think I made one, but if I did, it was to quit smoking, which I did.

9) Do you have a new years resolution for 2006?
yes, to soldify the relationships I built this year and revitalize the old ones.

10) Did you fall in love in 2005?
of course not.

11) If yes, with who?
n/a.

12) If yes, do they know?
n/a.

13) Are you still in love with them?
n/a

14) Do you regret it?
n/a

15) Did you breakup with anyone in 2005?
no I did not. thank god.

16) Did you make any new friends in 2005?
a few - Mike, Devo, CC, B-ri, Matt and J.

17) Who are your favorite new friends?
CC of course. But Mike has been beyond faithful.

18) What was your favorite month of 2005?
September was pretty good.

19) Did you travel outside of the US in 2005?
haha um no.

20) How many different states did you travel to in 2005?
pennsylvania, delaware, maryland, virginia, d.c., new york and dirty jersey.

21) Did you lose anybody close to you in 2005?
No one died, but I did lose some friends in the proverbial sense.

22) Did you miss anybody in the past year?
yes. all the time.

23) What was your favorite movie that you saw in 2005?
Secretly: Walk the Line. Best hands down? Capote.

24) What was your favorite song from 2005?
There's no way I could narrow it down, but Swimmers by Broken Social Scene was good, as was Spoon I summon you.

25) What was your favorite record from 2005?
Spoon-Gimme Fiction and Sufjan Stevens-Illnoise

26) How many concerts did you see in 2005?
I think its safe to say 0.

27) Did you have a favorite concert in 2005?
n/a.

28) Did you drink a lot of alcohol in 2005?
Not really. Late may-early June, yes b/c I turned 21. And recently I've been drinking more frequently, but other than that, no.

29) Did you do a lot of drugs in 2005?
there were points.

30) How many people did you sleep with in 2005?
haha. 1 minus 1.

31) Did you do anything you are ashamed of this year?
there's too many to count.

33) What was the worst lie someone told you in 2005?
I lied quite a bit. Most of it was little though.

34) Did you treat somebody badly in 2005?
I neglected quite a few people I wish I hadn't. Donna, notably.

35) Did somebody treat you badly in 2005?
yes.

36) How much money did you spend in 2005?
well over a grand.

37) What was your proudest moment of 2005?
quitting smoking and starting to run. Realizing I could take charge of my health. Getting my internship. Getting Managing Mosaic. Winning the Tilghman award.

38) What was your most embarrassing moment of 2005?
Throwing up at the 7-eleven on kirkwood highway new years day. There's been a few moments at the Review.

39) If you could go back in time to any moment of 2005 and change something, what would it be?
I would have spent more time with the people I love and show them I love them a bit more than I did.

40) What are your plans for 2006?
Keep running. Eat better. Get a job. Treasure the people I have.

Fri, 11 Nov 2005 03:31:11 GMT

i'm feeling lonely.
i know, gasp. you're all imagining me, with pea-colored skin, and a drooping christmas hat hugging all the whos in whoville.

Sat, 08 Oct 2005 04:25:21 GMT

John Donne didn't know what the fuck he was talking about.
No man is an island.

Well. I certainly feel like Fiji right now.

Water, water, everywhere. Not a drop to drink.

I cut the ties, now I stand here with the strings in my hands.

Wed, 28 Sep 2005 23:40:12 GMT

Lately I'm spending far too much time fighting against the wrong people.

Mon, 12 Sep 2005 01:45:07 GMT

Fucking ocean's eleven is on.
Makes me want to hurl something ceramic at my television.
I don't know what's wrong with me. Everyone's left me here to rot in this fucking state. Moved to florida, or d.c., moving up in the ladder, kissing ass and here I am. aimless, friendless and still trying to figure the past out and find some future.
That would be OK if I didn't felt so god damn sad.
Mediocracy makes me mad.

Fri, 02 Sep 2005 14:29:57 GMT

I just want you to let me go.

insert generic narcissistic entry here.

Tue, 30 Aug 2005 01:21:33 GMT

i'm itching to cut my hair, but since my freaking aunt chose me to be a bridesmaid 8 months from now, the bridezilla has dictated I shunt the scissors.
bitch.
no more summer. I feel like I should whip out some death cab for cutie 'oh woe is me, my summer romance has ended' song and reflect on all I'm losing.
but this is life right? We're always losing something.
namely, sanity.
i'm optimistic about this semester, atleast until 8 a.m. tomorrow.

Mon, 22 Aug 2005 18:04:49 GMT

I was rewatching last week's episode of Six Feet Under before the Finale last night.
and the part where Brenda is telling Billy how she feels as we grow older, the number of people who understand us dwindles until we're the last fucking people on earth to understand ourselves.
Yeah. That was August in a fucking nutshell.
And Brenda, fuck you. Atleast you still have Billy.
All I have is a pair of running shoes and a desk job.
I wish everyone would snap out of this Peter Pan syndrome and grow the fuck up.
M.

Wed, 27 Jul 2005 00:29:20 GMT

so zest closed. tear. too bad I couldn't even go and celebrate the last night of its glory, but I must say it will live on in my heart especially since I think Alex pretty much predicted the events of the last four years.

I remember when they did everything in their power to kick us out of there, but we clung like mildew to a bath towel.

Anyways. back to uneventful life of mine.

I've kind of enjoyed disconnecting myself from everyone this summer and rediscovering what I enjoy most.

Shore this weekend. I'm looking forward to returning to school. Steve and I have two classes together this Fall. So much for my grade point average.

Tue, 14 Jun 2005 04:48:50 GMT

i've learned a few things thanks to this unstructured, unorganized internship.

a. life after college is all about diminishing hope. things don't get better, they get worse.

b. this occupation will most likely kill me before 40.

c. I am not remotely talented in anything.

d. fuck devin.

Sun, 22 May 2005 00:14:10 GMT

i wish i was still 18.

oh, well. happy birthday to me.

Sun, 15 May 2005 02:17:18 GMT

people and their cute significant others make me want to vomit.
i'm realizing how, while i'll certainly miss Judah when he leaves for London, he needs to go so I can live on my own again.
even if it means being alone.
because surrounding myself with a homosexual support network is just not going to propel me anywhere.

Tue, 10 May 2005 22:39:38 GMT

So, in order to procrastinate to the fullest, I have delved into some not-so-light reading.

Things you should read right this minute.
namely Vanity Fair June.
particularly Michael Wolff's column on how bland and humorless liberals have become. Seriously, do we need to be showed up by Ann Coultier. Yet I think he wastes too much breath on the NYT.
The Angelina Interview is eh. ok.
But the best is this piece by ex-times magazine reporter Michael Finkel about how following his termination at the Magazine for fabricating a cover story, he made a discovery that pretty much guaranteed he'll be sticking around in print for awhile.
Don't want to ruin it for you.

oh. and shouts and murmurs concerning hoaxes is bloody brilliant.

now. off to do some work after i've substantially proved how much of a nerd i truly am.

Mon, 09 May 2005 15:40:27 GMT

atleast i'm coming to accept the fact I am completely fucked this semester.

spring is a time of rebirth and revitalization
but inside is nothing but the remnants of autumn.
a tomb of rotten leaves and faded glory.

i'm not looking forward to this summer.

last time I checked totalitarianism is not an adequate method with which to lead.
i'm envious of those who got out while they could.
because now I'm left to lead the carcass of a team, a family.

it looks like april showers have failed to bring may flowers.

Thu, 05 May 2005 00:49:04 GMT

if only i could say i'm sorry.
even if it would be far from enough.

rest in peace, angel.

Tue, 03 May 2005 04:25:42 GMT

this semsster is like a knife in my side, digging deeper and taking more out of me.
i need a permanant vacation from my life.
There reason the Runaway Bride is getting so much attention is because we all secretly wish we could disappear and travel halfway across the country without anyone noticing at all.
lately my best moments have been in solitude. there's no need to impress, say something for the sake of saying something. you can think without any interuptions.
the best you no one else ever gets to see.

i can't wait to reclaim my life back.

Mon, 25 Apr 2005 00:57:06 GMT

i am losing my fucking mind.

archived appreciation for mid-90s chick rock.

Tue, 19 Apr 2005 09:45:13 GMT

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Sat, 02 Apr 2005 21:38:21 GMT

time for another obligatory update.
spring break has made me realize that, despite the week off, i feel more alienated from people than i did a week ago.
perhaps its due to the fact i'm in newark and not lounging on some beach in a third world country with sand up my ass and half a bottle of tequila coursing through my bloodstream.
but, HEY, since i am plunging head first into a pool of antisocialism, might as well hole up in my apartment and watch some entertaining programsm, right?
SIN CITY IS FUCKING AMAZING. run to the movies. now.
i'm officially addicted to the office.
and fat actress would be improved if they popped mayim bldsajkidjsla whatever her name is aka blossom like a balloon.
d.c. and virginia was a wash out. mike and i have nothing to do but take jabs at each other. i'm tired of his bullshit and he's tired of my self-absorbing oversentimentalism.
and charlottesville was lovely before people opened their mouths.

next year, i'm taping a blanket over my head.

e tu, brutus?

Tue, 15 Mar 2005 23:13:09 GMT

Beware the ides of March.
I can't believe i pay $213 every tuesday night to sit there and listen to flynn talk about himself for 2 fucking hours.
I wish i could just take an f and walk.

i have a bad case of senioritis. which is funny because i'm still a junior.

Tuesdays make me want to stab my eyes out. Now I know how oedipus felt.

This optimistic outlook i've been trying to cultivate isn't working too well.

M.

Tue, 08 Mar 2005 02:18:36 GMT

my brother is in california. LUCKY. i've lost so much the past year and it's making me reconsider the way i look at my life and the world in general. i miss my social life. adult swim. there's a smell to those 60 degree days when i can wear flip flops and t shirts. no school. parties until dawn. boys that like to show up at 2 am and surprise me. sour cream and onion chips. silver gti's. those blue eyes and our sparring matches.
but my libido lives vicariously through the tv:
ryan dunn. so flippin hot.
http://www.navajokid.com/dunn/images/xray.jpg